Walking it out!

I love myself through the process of stepping deeper and farther into that self that I am loving.

The narcissist cyclic web

I see...patterns, and cycles which repeat themselves, are likely to continue doing so. I made a choice not to get spun around in another loop around the track. In the last year, my confidence took a swan dive, but I found a route back. It started off mildly enough. They'll lean in as if they're … Continue reading The narcissist cyclic web →

No. A complete sentence.

https://youtu.be/XtJROwOGPJY No. A complete sentence, from a recovered people-pleaser. I recently had an old client reach out to me with a 4-page letter demanding a refund. I was surprised at first, then angered. Once I had processed it, and ran it through a filter of objectivity and clarity, I responded. I had not bothered to … Continue reading No. A complete sentence. →

Reflections

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ghlj3h4rMA Transcript of audio:We are mirror reflections for each other, but for some of us, we are only willing to clean our mirrors to the extent that we can retain the illusions that stare back at us.Honesty is gritty work.And..I've experienced that, the more clearly and purely you are able to be honest with yourself … Continue reading Reflections →

Your evolution is not a ‘nothing’

When you're neck-deep in whatever it is..it can be challenging to see things clearly.Last year was a rough year for me. At the same time though, every time I would clear a hurdle, the line between the lifestyle I want and my diligent efforts to attain it would get shorter and shorter.Two things occur to me much more clearly now … Continue reading Your evolution is not a ‘nothing’ →

never never never give up

Now that HyxH is postponed in launching publicly (see last post), it's back to the regular posts on here for now. Bear with me, I just want to share something with ya.I've got to a climax, a resting place that I've been fighting to get to for the last 5 years. When I decided, at … Continue reading never never never give up →

High X is born

https://youtu.be/QMBPIWSEXmg A baby takes 6 - 9 months to form, and even once out of the womb, there are many phases of growth and development. Can we un-pack 'instant'? Can we release the NOW of personal power?It is a journey, more has to be un-packed, than added. It is mostly about deleting programs and less … Continue reading High X is born →

Hi! I’m JanBerry

Hello! 👋🏾 Jan here, and I am a creative and author from Trinidad, in the Caribbean..the Carib-beeeean, according to Kermit..🐸 It's okay, if you didn't catch that. 🤦🏾‍♂️I wanted to introduce/re-introduce myself. I've been soap-boxing on here for a little while now. I really really love to write, and though I don't really have a … Continue reading Hi! I’m JanBerry →

Love these Walls Down

https://youtu.be/8w8akIScwiQ I released a dub single in 2019, “Love these Walls Down”...my voice is no longer as light and high pitched as heard in the song though.It’s deeper now and has gotten a bit of a husky texture to it.I laugh harder.I speak louder.I haven’t tackled singing anything.. honestly I haven’t quite figured out to … Continue reading Love these Walls Down →

Me and my awesomeness

I am AWESOME.Yes, with fuckin capitals...and the fact that I don’t say it often enough have got some people out here confused. We..meaning, my awesomeness and I need to let it be more clearly and frequently stated.The more I set boundaries is the more I see how little value I held in some people’s eyes..as … Continue reading Me and my awesomeness →