Letting Go is being able to embrace your realities and be entirely present in the moment with them, meanwhile understanding that you are not the sum total of those experiences.
I’ve likened it to the use of a pencil to write, so in holding a pencil to write with it, you have to properly grip the pencil in order to effectively write. Letting go is understanding that you control the pencil, the pencil doesn’t control you.
You don’t have control over other people and how they use their aura of influence, but the more that you take ownership over and properly grip your own pencil and write with it, directing and guiding it, is the wider your aura of influence becomes.
So, letting go is both holding that pencil to write whatever needs to be written, but then leaving the marks made to take up their own space after you’ve done so, because you only have control over yourself, but the more control you take over yourself, the more your own sphere of influence grows. As far as that interaction goes between you and the pencil, it is a delicate balance of gripping both tightly and loosely. The more that you utilise your creative ability to write your own reality, your fluency in doing so increases, and you evolve. This is why there is a need to also hold loosely, to allow for that growth and expansion.
– janberry. 8Sep2020. 5.05am
There is a snippet from the book launch above. I’ve been thinking about it in the context of letting go, particularly because I am at the beginning of a transition to have a more masculine appearance. My first doctor’s appointment was last Wednesday. There are so many things to let go because of this. It is an evolution that will take me deeper into gripping my own pencil, but also holding loosely to allow for the changes I expect, as well as the ones I don’t anticipate.
By writing this, I’m letting go. I had promised myself I wouldn’t divulge any details of my transition, because, as you can well imagine, it is an immensely private experience. At the same time, I’ve suffered silently for so long that I truly want to help people, young and old, come to grips with things like this. My message isn’t for everyone but it is for someone.
In the video, I talk about the vanity of it. Vanity is a valid human emotion, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. If we lived on the earth entirely alone, then we would have no need to have an identity, because who would we be identifying our selves against, or for. We live amongst people, and everyone of us has a unique imprint, that is important to bring to the surface. I’m about to do this thing, and I have to let go of the process itself. I have to let go of previous versions of me that have brought me here, meanwhile being steadfast and fearless in bringing about the new me.